The photography theme for week 38 was ‘Lost’. This was definitely a theme that I could identify with. In life, I question what I’m doing and where I’m going quite often.
Always stuck between this is exactly where I should be and I should be over ‘there’ doing more. Wherever “there” is. I over-think the fuck out of everything, EVERYTHING!
When I’m lost it’s usually because I’m trapped in my own little mind, searching for some new direction to go in, or waiting for my ship to come in, as if one day I’ll wake up and suddenly be great at everything I feel quite mediocre at. When in reality I’m not perfect, no one is!
What I do know is that I fail quite often, as a mother, wife, photographer, crafter. Yet… my kids are happy, my husband is satisfied (wink, wink), my photography improves constantly, and my crafts sell, so that has to tell me something, right? Yeah, yeah it does… I’m pretty fucking awesome exactly where I am. Time to get out of my own head and enjoy the beach I’m on! I was trying to get all metaphoric there, but that sounds kind of cheesy, you know what the fuck I mean though. :p
So glad I had this little pep talk with myself. I needed that.
“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful.” ~ Oscar Wilde
This isn’t part of my 52 week challenge, I just wanted to take a photo of my butt, and voila! Can’t really have a fulfilling Humpday if you don’t put the hump out there, right?
The photography theme for week 37 was ‘Tiniest of details’.
This bug was so itty bitty, didn’t even notice it when I flipped the mushroom over. Once I started shooting it crawled out, just a little spec of a thing. That’s one thing I love about macro photography, so much beauty in the tiniest of details. Not that I find that bug beautiful per se , but there is something cool about all the things you can see in such a small space.
“The only bad workout is the one that didn’t happen” Self-portrait
The photography theme for week 36 was ‘Nourish’.
Not only have I been slacking off on keeping up with this photo project, I have also dropped the ball on my workouts. I was going strong, lifting weights, and working out everyday for over a year. The last few month however, not so much. I can’t even see my muscles anymore. Waaaaaaaa. I am slowly trying to get back into in. I started back up a couple of weeks ago, was doing pretty good until leg day. I couldn’t walk for about a week after, I guess I over did it, which also meant I couldn’t lift anything until I healed. Getting old sucks!
I still love drinking protein shakes though, I’ve at least been consistent with keeping those in my diet. I’m not a big meat eater (I can think of a ton of sexual jokes to add here), I can never get enough protein in, so I supplement when I can. Here, I’m drinking a chocolate protein shake, but lately I’ve been sucking down green protein smoothies every day. Yum!
Talking about muscles, meat eating, not being able to walk, and sucking things down kind of put me in the mood for other types of nourishment. Anyone else? No?…just me then. Okay. Off I go to satisfy some other cravings. 😉
A few things happened this month. I turned 42 on the 10th, and also this month marks the 10th anniversary of when I quit smoking. Prior to that I smoked for almost 19 years, if you are good with math you’ll figure out that I started when I was 13 years old, you know…because I was cool.
I’d like to go back and kick my 13 year old ass. Now that I have a 13 year old daughter I find myself doing that thing, you know the thing, the thing that all parents do, try to save your kid from making all the same mistakes you made as an adolescent.
I’d like to think I have a great relationship with my 13 year old, we joke around a lot and have an open line of communication. No topic is off limits.
Most days when she’s leaving the house I give her a hug and add, “I love you, don’t do drugs, drink, smoke, or have sex. Have a great day!” She rolls her eyes while laughing (in my head she’s laughing, it’s mostly eye rolls), and I giggle just hoping that what I say will stick with her.
I think I’m doing alright though. To take this photo I needed to have smoke. I asked my husband to stop at the store and get me some type of E-cig, or like the cool kids call it ‘vape’, or is it ‘vaper’? Shit, I’m so not cool anymore. My daughter was with with my husband when he went to purchase some, she was worried that this would be my gateway to smoking again. The fact that she was so disgusted with the idea of smoking brings me some comfort. For now I’m pretty confident she’s not interested in lighting up, chances are she feels the same way about drugs too.
I’m always preaching about how drugs, drinking, and smoking can mess you up, especially at her age. Now…as for the sex part, I have nothing bad to say about sex. Sex is amazing!!! Just not when you are 13! lol
The theme for my week 30 image was ‘Looking in’. Figured I’d give you a glimpse into my morning ritual.
Any given day this is the typical scene….coffee within arms reach, watching a movie or TV show on the tablet, and doing my makeup. I like to multitask!
Just so you all know, this photo is for week 30, it is actually week 37 right now. So yes! I’m still behind, no surprise there though, right? Maybe if I spent less time doing my makeup I’d catch up. Priorities! 😀
I’ve dropped the ball on keeping up with my weekly themes, currently a couple of weeks behind. I’ve been uninspired, distracted, stressed, and avoiding all things ‘life’. However, it has been beautiful weather here, so I’ve at least been escaping into the pool. Can’t complain too much about that.
When I get stressed, or feel like there is too much on my plate to deal with…. I mentally shut down, it’s my life defense mode. Not the best tactic because it really just puts everything on pause, but when I have hard time focusing on any one thing, I decide to ignore ALL things. It doesn’t always work, stepping away from everything and everyone is hard to do, trying to reset and get out of my own head is needed though. Soooo…. that’s what I’ve been up to. Having my own personal pity party, trying to reset!
The fact that I took this photo, uploaded it, and am writing this post…. tells me it’s working though. One thing at a time, right?
I’m not a fan of vague statuses, where people cry about all things wrong in their world without telling you what in the fuck is actually wrong. Those statuses really irk the hell out of me. That being said, I apologize for not sharing all the stressful details of my life right now. It’s okay, you can hate me for that. lol
It has been a rough week around here, sadly my father-in-law suffered a stroke last Friday and passed away a couple of days ago. He was a kind man and served his country well. Retired pilot, Lt Col for the US Air Force.
I’m just going to post a pretty image I took on Independence day and wish you all beautiful evening.
When I was looking around online for some ideas I found a few images that made me smile. The inspiration for my image comes from the caricatures created by ‘McLendon Photography‘. Check them out if you have a second, so well done and creative. Will put a smile on your face, even if you don’t feel like smiling. 🙂
And here’s a little song that seems like a good fit for the photo.
‘Dear Lord Baby Jesus..make it STAHP!’ Self-Portrait
The theme for last weeks photo was ‘Sign Language’.
I’m a little overdue with this photo as I struggled with the theme. Sometimes inspiration hits out of nowhere… in this case, it was my Instagram DM’s.
For the love of God, people. Stop sending me DM’s and mail telling me how hot I am, as original as that might be (eye-roll), I’m good. There is no reason that needs to be said in a private message. I’m appreciative that you find me attractive, thank you. Feel free to just leave a comment so that everyone can see it. At least boost my ego publicly like a decent pervert! 😀
I know this sounds petty. It could be worse, right? I mean, you could be sending me dick pics… oh wait… you’re doing that too. Sigh! STAHP!
Why? What is your motivation here?
I have yet to see a dick that makes me want to drop my panties and risk losing my family just to find out who is on the other end of it. I know what you’re thinking..”but I could be the one”.. No! Trust me, you are not the one. Your dick could shoot out magic rainbows with hundred dollar bill confetti and I still wouldn’t want to…. um, okay…yes, I’d want to see that, but that’s the exception.
If after reading this you still want to send me photos, at least read up on my dick pic requirements. Here is a little something I wrote last year, still relevant today. Enjoy!