No news is good news.

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Self-Portrait

Ever need to get away from it all and unplug for a little bit?

Two weeks ago I decided to just go ahead and do it, and I couldn’t be happier about my decision.  Now I’m not talking about completely disconnecting from my online life, that’d be crazy!! Baby steps, people! But… I did deactivate my personal Facebook account and haven’t been online as much since doing that. Notice I didn’t say “delete” my Facebook account. Of course I’ll be back again at some point, I think?

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This made me laugh. As much as I love attention, quitting Facebook isn’t really what I’d do to get it, I mean seriously…. I have boobs! Big, round, fake, attention getting boobs. See, have your attention now, don’t I?

The last couple of years I’ve become a bit addicted to Facebook. I’m always on it, even if I’m not interacting.  Not that that really bothers me too much. I thoroughly enjoy the online friendships and it’s a great place to keep in touch with old friends, and family. I’m the type that loves to know all about you, wants to see your kids, your pets, your selfies, and your daily activities….in a non-stalkery sort of way…. yeah, yeah, let’s go with that. I’m also the type that will look in your windows if you leave your curtains open though…in a non-pervy way of course *ahem*.   I suppose this is one of the reasons I enjoy self-portraits so much, it’s an extra glimpse into the lives of others.

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I definitely don’t text and drive, but I have on many occasions closed Facebook on my PC to immediately pick up my phone and check it again, just in case I missed something important, you know….like photos of what everyone is eating for lunch.

Every time I’ve thought about taking a break I’d come up with a couple of reasons why I couldn’t, these were easy excuses for me to use to stay connected.

  1. I’ll lose touch with everyone.
  2. If I deactivate or delete my personal page, my other pages will automatically go inactive as well.

I have a few Facebook pages, including the one attached to this blog that is run by my personal page.  I didn’t want to lose those and couldn’t see how to keep one without the other.

So I posed the question on Facebook asking if anyone knew a way around this, thankfully a few friends did and were able to show me the loophole.  Once I knew how to do it it took me a few days to convince myself that it was for the best.

See, as much as I love seeing all the good that everyone is up to, it also comes with all the bad negative drama as well.  If you have Facebook you know what I’m talking about. *cough, cough* Politics…among other things.

One of the first things I do in the morning is check all of my online accounts, Facebook being one of them. Most mornings I’d checked it just to read the messages I received, but then I’d see my news feed and get sucked in. I would start to scroll through some stuff, skip some other stuff, read some comments, and more comments, and conversations, and before I knew it I’d be over an hour in and extremely annoyed with myself for wasting so much time on reading news I couldn’t give two shits about. Not the best way to start the day, and not the way I wanted to spend any free time I had throughout the afternoons and evenings.

At the moment, I don’t miss it at all!  I still chat with my friends and family, only now it’s on my blogs Facebook page, and instead of my news feed being filled with negativity and dumb fucking Minion memes, seriously with the Minion memes… STOP! It makes zero sense to post a photo of a Minion with a deep and meaningful fucking quote!

Let me indulge a bit on this pet-peeve. Why in the fuck would these quotes need a Minion with them?!!! Grrrrrr…..

This one however…perfectly acceptable!

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Tangent there… what was I saying?

Oh yeah, now I get to log onto my blogs Facebook page, read messages and chat, and only see whatever I post there, no negative BS, not my friends or family bickering, no news reports filled with all the bad stuff going on in this world. In this case….ignorance is a bit blissful.

Of course, I’m still a social media whore….but now I’m a happier one. Nothing better than a happy whore, am I right?

You know where to find me….here at the Blog, Instagram, Twitter, Flickr, G+, Email, Smoke signals, Ouija board, AshleyMadison.com… I’m kidding, just seeing if you’re paying attention!

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

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Stick a fork in me….

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Self-Portrait

I’m done!

Done with what exactly? Done trying to pretend I’ll catch up and finish my 52 week photography challenge.  It’s taken everything I have to call it quits, I don’t like giving up, but lately…. I’m drained.  I have so many other things I have to do, and want to do. So in an effort to remove a bit of stress and maintain some sanity, I have to call it.  I still love photography, I just bought a new camera in fact!  For now though, I’ll be taking photos when I feel inspired, and although the themes do spark my creativity,  I’ve found that I’ve been putting off taking some of the images I really want to take and instead focusing on themes because I just don’t have the time to do both.

I already feel like a weight has been lifted by making this decision. 🙂

Anyway….

This image is one I took yesterday. I actually had a really good day, not that this photo portrays that in anyway at all, but I was able to put a big stress in my life to rest (no, I didn’t kill anyone).  My original intent was to take a quick photo because I was in such a good mood and it felt nice to be out of jeans and sneakers for a change. Of course, as I was setting up my camera I kept thinking about how I had to catch up on themes, and how I should be focusing on those, how I didn’t have time to be taking a photo when I have chores to do and kids to take care of, and blah blah blah……  I could feel things weighing on me.  I had been kicking around the idea of quitting the challenge for a while, but that moment and frame of thought solidified it for me.

Today, I focused on chores and kids! Tomorrow, I’m going away for the night with the hubby. I can not wait to sleep naked, and with any luck I’ll be completely taken advantage of.  I can feel the stress melting away already! 😉

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 39

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‘Adventure Awaits!’

The photo theme for week 39 was “Road Less Traveled.”   My kids seem to find the adventure in everything, here they are “mountain climbing”. Was quite the task for them. I hope they can hold on to that imagination for a long time.

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52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 38

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‘Stranded’ Self-Portrait

The photography theme for week 38 was ‘Lost’.  This was definitely a theme that I could identify with.  In life, I question what I’m doing and where I’m going quite often.

Always stuck between this is exactly where I should be and I should be over ‘there’ doing more. Wherever “there” is. I over-think the fuck out of everything, EVERYTHING!

When I’m lost it’s usually because I’m trapped in my own little mind, searching for some new direction to go in, or waiting for my ship to come in, as if one day I’ll wake up and suddenly be great at everything I feel quite mediocre at.  When in reality I’m not perfect, no one is!

 

What I do know is that I fail quite often, as a mother, wife, photographer, crafter. Yet… my kids are happy, my husband is satisfied (wink, wink), my photography improves constantly, and my crafts sell, so that has to tell me something, right?  Yeah, yeah it does… I’m pretty fucking awesome exactly where I am.  Time to get out of my own head and enjoy the beach I’m on! I was trying to get all metaphoric there, but that sounds kind of cheesy, you know what the fuck I mean though. :p

So glad I had this little pep talk with myself. I needed that.

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

 

 

 

 

 

photography ~Lure~

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‘Lure’ Self-Portrait

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful.” ~ Oscar Wilde

This isn’t part of my 52 week challenge, I just wanted to take a photo of my butt, and voila!  Can’t really have a fulfilling Humpday if you don’t put the hump out there, right?

Happy Humpday! 😉

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 37

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‘Buggin’

The photography theme for week 37 was ‘Tiniest of details’.

This bug was so itty bitty, didn’t even notice it when I flipped the mushroom over. Once I started shooting it crawled out, just a little spec of a thing.   That’s one thing I love about macro photography, so much beauty in the tiniest of details. Not that I find that bug beautiful per se , but there is something cool about all the things you can see in such a small space.

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

 

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 36

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“The only bad workout is the one that didn’t happen” Self-portrait

The photography theme for week 36 was ‘Nourish’.

Not only have I been slacking off on keeping up with this photo project, I have also dropped the ball on my workouts.  I was going strong, lifting weights, and working out everyday for over a year.  The last few month however, not so much. I can’t even see my muscles anymore. Waaaaaaaa.  I am slowly trying to get back into in.  I started back up a couple of weeks ago, was doing pretty good until leg day. I couldn’t walk for about a week after, I guess I over did it,  which also meant I couldn’t lift anything until I healed. Getting old sucks!

I still love drinking protein shakes though, I’ve at least been consistent with keeping those in my diet. I’m not a big meat eater (I can think of a ton of sexual jokes to add here), I can never get enough protein in, so I supplement when I can.   Here, I’m drinking a chocolate protein shake, but lately I’ve been sucking down green protein smoothies every day. Yum!

Talking about muscles, meat eating, not being able to walk, and sucking things down kind of put me in the mood for other types of nourishment. Anyone else? No?…just me then. Okay. Off I go to satisfy some other cravings. 😉

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

 

 

 

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 35

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‘Succubus’ Self-portrait

The photography theme for week 35 was ‘Savor’.

All of my photography can be seen in larger format on Flickr.  I’m also pretty active on Instagram, because it’s easy to use, I like easy, I’m lazy. 😀

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 34

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‘Deteriorate’

“The trees are about to show us how lovely it is to let the dead things go.”

The photography theme for week 34 was ‘Crumbled’.  Sometimes I take photos of things that are not me. 🙂

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 33

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‘Cure For Lonely’  Self-Portrait

The photography theme for week 33 was ‘From the waist down’.  I decided to go a bit literal.

Have wonderful weekend!

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 32

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‘Red Herring’ Self-Portrait

The photo theme for week 32 was ‘Red’.

Decided to write a little poetry for this one. Enjoy!

‘Red Herring’

“Hungry?” You ask

“Starving” I reply

So famished in fact

I’ll devour every lie

Garnished just so

Seasoned to my taste

Red Herring served cold

Sits beautifully on my plate

A dish you prepare

Every

Single

Night

And me, so hungry

I eat every bite.

~Dye Stormere

 

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

 

 

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 31

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‘Venom’ Self-Portrait

The theme for my week 31 image was ‘Smoke’.

A few things happened this month.  I turned 42 on the 10th, and also this month marks the 10th anniversary of when I quit smoking.  Prior to that I smoked for almost 19 years, if you are good with math you’ll figure out that I started when I was 13 years old, you know…because I was cool.

I’d like to go back and kick my 13 year old ass. Now that I have a 13 year old daughter I find myself doing that thing, you know the thing, the thing that all parents do, try to save your kid from making all the same mistakes you made as an adolescent.

I’d like to think I have a great relationship with my 13 year old, we joke around a lot and have an open line of communication. No topic is off limits.

Most days when she’s leaving the house I give her a hug and add, “I love you, don’t do drugs, drink, smoke, or have sex. Have a great day!”  She rolls her eyes while laughing (in my head she’s laughing, it’s mostly eye rolls), and I giggle just hoping that what I say will stick with her.

I think I’m doing alright though. To take this photo I needed to have smoke. I asked my husband to stop at the store and get me some type of E-cig, or like the cool kids call it ‘vape’, or is it ‘vaper’? Shit, I’m so not cool anymore. My daughter was with with my husband when he went to purchase some, she was worried that this would be my gateway to smoking again.  The fact that she was so disgusted with the idea of smoking brings me some comfort.  For now I’m pretty confident she’s not interested in lighting up, chances are she feels the same way about drugs too.

I’m always preaching about how drugs, drinking, and smoking can mess you up, especially at her age. Now…as for the sex part, I have nothing bad to say about sex. Sex is amazing!!! Just not when you are 13! lol

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 30

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‘Morning Ritual’ Self-Portrait

The theme for my week 30 image was ‘Looking in’.  Figured I’d give you a glimpse into my morning ritual.

Any given day this is the typical scene….coffee within arms reach, watching a movie or TV show on the tablet, and doing my makeup.  I like to multitask!

Just so you all know, this photo is for week 30, it is actually week 37 right now. So yes! I’m still behind, no surprise there though, right? Maybe if I spent less time doing my makeup I’d catch up. Priorities!  😀

“Type hard, like you mean it!”

52 Weeks Of Photos ~2016~ Week 28

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‘My escape plan.’ Self-portrait

The theme for week 28 was ‘Neon’.

I’ve dropped the ball on keeping up with my weekly themes, currently a couple of weeks behind. I’ve been uninspired, distracted, stressed, and avoiding all things ‘life’. However, it has been beautiful weather here, so I’ve at least been escaping into the pool. Can’t complain too much about that.

When I get stressed, or feel like there is too much on my plate to deal with…. I mentally shut down, it’s my life defense mode.  Not the best tactic because it really just puts everything on pause, but when I have hard time focusing on any one thing, I decide to ignore ALL things.  It doesn’t always work, stepping away from everything and everyone is hard to do,  trying to reset and get out of my own head is needed though. Soooo…. that’s what I’ve been up to. Having my own personal pity party, trying to reset!

The fact that I took this photo, uploaded it, and am writing this post…. tells me it’s working though. One thing at a time, right?

I’m not a fan of vague statuses, where people cry about all things wrong in their world without telling you what in the fuck is actually wrong. Those statuses really irk the hell out of me. That being said, I apologize for not sharing all the stressful details of my life right now. It’s okay, you can hate me for that. lol

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“Just keep swimming.”

“Type hard, like you mean it!”