This photo is lyrically inspired by the song ‘In Boxes by Aurora’, I’ve been wanting to do a photo to this song for a few years now. If you haven’t heard it, give it a listen, it’s a bit twisted… I like twisted. 😉
Some of the lyrics:
“Here I am still lonely with the souvenirs
I would kill for some company
I did once have a lover only kept his hands
They can dance and play the songs for me
Play until I sleep”
What’s this image have to do with love? Well… I’m a fan of hands and the way they can make you feel. I’ve often told my husband that when he dies, or when I kill him… I’m keeping his hands. The man has magic fingers, but even aside from the many sexual pleasures they provide, they offer a sense of intimacy that I’ll never tire of, a closeness that even in silence can be felt with something as simple as putting his hand in mine. Sigh… (let me have my girl moment here). Hand holding is where it’s at! So much so that when I had my friend with benefits (when I was single), hand holding was on my list of no-no’s. It’s just too….intimate and caring, don’t care about me, just do me! Hee… I clearly have issues!
“Have you ever really held the hand of someone you love? Not just in passing, a loose link between you – but truly clasped, with the pulses of your wrists beating together and your fingers mapping the knuckles and nails like a cartographer learning a country by heart?”
― Jodi Picoult
On a lighter note, his hands belong to me, I’m keeping them…forever!
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I’ve had this song, ‘Oh Ms. Believer, by Twenty One Pilots’ stuck in my head for the past week. I kind of love it and have been overplaying the fuck out of it. Felt like I needed an image to go with it.
Happy to say I’ve made it 10 weeks into this self-portrait challenge and haven’t wanted to quit yet, that’s saying a lot. Only 42 more weeks to go! Damn, that sounds overwhelming when I say it out loud. I’ll just stop saying it out loud I guess. Week 10, done!
“Sometimes I use big words I don’t fully understand in an effort to make myself seem more photosynthesis”
I don’t really consider myself an airhead, but today when I Googled “how to spell airhead?” I questioned my own judgement. To be clear though, I really just wanted to confirm that it was one word, not two. It’s one. Unless you are getting a blow job on an airplane, then it’s “air head”, like “road head” in a car. The more you fucking know.
At the beginning of the year I had asked some of my followers to help out by lending me some photography themes and ideas to use for my 52 week photo project. I received some good stuff filled with inspiration. One of the words given to me was “Comic Book”, so I decided to roll with it. If I’m being completely honest though…. this was not the photo I had planned for the week. What I wanted to do didn’t work out and required more set up than I had time for, out of sheer laziness of not wanting to carry my light and camera back downstairs ( I know! LAZY!) I decided to shoot something in this hallway instead. But you know what? I kind of love it! It also reminded me to keep it simple stupid, this was quick and easy to do, just like I like it!
and…since I’m being honest, I have a confession to make: I don’t like comic books…or Graphic Novels. There, I said it! Don’t get me wrong, the artwork is pretty cool, but I just can’t pick one up and read it, I have zero interest or desire.
As I was typing that out I was thinking “I’ve never read a comic book in my life”, but then I remembered that when I was younger I would look through ‘Heavy Metal’ comic books (still, never read them), they were inappropriate and had nudey pics in them, there was also the movie, ‘Heavy Metal’, based on the comics, I remember watching that more times than I probably should have. Maybe I just need to find more comic books with sex? But then again… porn is just so much easier. Yeah… I’ll stick with porn. 😀
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Done with what exactly? Done trying to pretend I’ll catch up and finish my 52 week photography challenge. It’s taken everything I have to call it quits, I don’t like giving up, but lately…. I’m drained. I have so many other things I have to do, and want to do. So in an effort to remove a bit of stress and maintain some sanity, I have to call it. I still love photography, I just bought a new camera in fact! For now though, I’ll be taking photos when I feel inspired, and although the themes do spark my creativity, I’ve found that I’ve been putting off taking some of the images I really want to take and instead focusing on themes because I just don’t have the time to do both.
I already feel like a weight has been lifted by making this decision. 🙂
This image is one I took yesterday. I actually had a really good day, not that this photo portrays that in anyway at all, but I was able to put a big stress in my life to rest (no, I didn’t kill anyone). My original intent was to take a quick photo because I was in such a good mood and it felt nice to be out of jeans and sneakers for a change. Of course, as I was setting up my camera I kept thinking about how I had to catch up on themes, and how I should be focusing on those, how I didn’t have time to be taking a photo when I have chores to do and kids to take care of, and blah blah blah…… I could feel things weighing on me. I had been kicking around the idea of quitting the challenge for a while, but that moment and frame of thought solidified it for me.
Today, I focused on chores and kids! Tomorrow, I’m going away for the night with the hubby. I can not wait to sleep naked, and with any luck I’ll be completely taken advantage of. I can feel the stress melting away already! 😉
The photo theme for week 39 was “Road Less Traveled.” My kids seem to find the adventure in everything, here they are “mountain climbing”. Was quite the task for them. I hope they can hold on to that imagination for a long time.
The photography theme for week 38 was ‘Lost’. This was definitely a theme that I could identify with. In life, I question what I’m doing and where I’m going quite often.
Always stuck between this is exactly where I should be and I should be over ‘there’ doing more. Wherever “there” is. I over-think the fuck out of everything, EVERYTHING!
When I’m lost it’s usually because I’m trapped in my own little mind, searching for some new direction to go in, or waiting for my ship to come in, as if one day I’ll wake up and suddenly be great at everything I feel quite mediocre at. When in reality I’m not perfect, no one is!
What I do know is that I fail quite often, as a mother, wife, photographer, crafter. Yet… my kids are happy, my husband is satisfied (wink, wink), my photography improves constantly, and my crafts sell, so that has to tell me something, right? Yeah, yeah it does… I’m pretty fucking awesome exactly where I am. Time to get out of my own head and enjoy the beach I’m on! I was trying to get all metaphoric there, but that sounds kind of cheesy, you know what the fuck I mean though. :p
So glad I had this little pep talk with myself. I needed that.
The photography theme for week 37 was ‘Tiniest of details’.
This bug was so itty bitty, didn’t even notice it when I flipped the mushroom over. Once I started shooting it crawled out, just a little spec of a thing. That’s one thing I love about macro photography, so much beauty in the tiniest of details. Not that I find that bug beautiful per se , but there is something cool about all the things you can see in such a small space.
“The only bad workout is the one that didn’t happen” Self-portrait
The photography theme for week 36 was ‘Nourish’.
Not only have I been slacking off on keeping up with this photo project, I have also dropped the ball on my workouts. I was going strong, lifting weights, and working out everyday for over a year. The last few month however, not so much. I can’t even see my muscles anymore. Waaaaaaaa. I am slowly trying to get back into in. I started back up a couple of weeks ago, was doing pretty good until leg day. I couldn’t walk for about a week after, I guess I over did it, which also meant I couldn’t lift anything until I healed. Getting old sucks!
I still love drinking protein shakes though, I’ve at least been consistent with keeping those in my diet. I’m not a big meat eater (I can think of a ton of sexual jokes to add here), I can never get enough protein in, so I supplement when I can. Here, I’m drinking a chocolate protein shake, but lately I’ve been sucking down green protein smoothies every day. Yum!
Talking about muscles, meat eating, not being able to walk, and sucking things down kind of put me in the mood for other types of nourishment. Anyone else? No?…just me then. Okay. Off I go to satisfy some other cravings. 😉
A few things happened this month. I turned 42 on the 10th, and also this month marks the 10th anniversary of when I quit smoking. Prior to that I smoked for almost 19 years, if you are good with math you’ll figure out that I started when I was 13 years old, you know…because I was cool.
I’d like to go back and kick my 13 year old ass. Now that I have a 13 year old daughter I find myself doing that thing, you know the thing, the thing that all parents do, try to save your kid from making all the same mistakes you made as an adolescent.
I’d like to think I have a great relationship with my 13 year old, we joke around a lot and have an open line of communication. No topic is off limits.
Most days when she’s leaving the house I give her a hug and add, “I love you, don’t do drugs, drink, smoke, or have sex. Have a great day!” She rolls her eyes while laughing (in my head she’s laughing, it’s mostly eye rolls), and I giggle just hoping that what I say will stick with her.
I think I’m doing alright though. To take this photo I needed to have smoke. I asked my husband to stop at the store and get me some type of E-cig, or like the cool kids call it ‘vape’, or is it ‘vaper’? Shit, I’m so not cool anymore. My daughter was with with my husband when he went to purchase some, she was worried that this would be my gateway to smoking again. The fact that she was so disgusted with the idea of smoking brings me some comfort. For now I’m pretty confident she’s not interested in lighting up, chances are she feels the same way about drugs too.
I’m always preaching about how drugs, drinking, and smoking can mess you up, especially at her age. Now…as for the sex part, I have nothing bad to say about sex. Sex is amazing!!! Just not when you are 13! lol
The theme for my week 30 image was ‘Looking in’. Figured I’d give you a glimpse into my morning ritual.
Any given day this is the typical scene….coffee within arms reach, watching a movie or TV show on the tablet, and doing my makeup. I like to multitask!
Just so you all know, this photo is for week 30, it is actually week 37 right now. So yes! I’m still behind, no surprise there though, right? Maybe if I spent less time doing my makeup I’d catch up. Priorities! 😀